Thursday, April 24, 2014

Day 24



The windows are a little bit broken
by which I mean some years ago,
before we got here, the glass 
cracked into webs and there are small 
light-filled holes in the black metal frames. 
Some of the doors have rusted-out 
circles where earthworms wriggle through 
to the kitchen at night.  And the plants, 
I’m embarrassed to say, have minds 
of their own.  We cut them and they
return. Their desire to live is stronger 
than our urge for order. I’m not sure 
if I thought it would be different, this 
growing up.  As a kid, the adults I knew 
had rituals like church on Sunday and drinks 
at five o’clock everyday, which made 
their lives seem ship-shape.  We aren’t 
like that.  We float, we drift, and I’m not 
sure if the house will ever be perfect, 
a word my son’s teacher says shouldn’t 
exist, not the word, exactly, but its definition 
or rather its enforcement.  Fine china sits
in the catacombs of our cabinets. Our plates 
are made of paper. Our hands work just fine.


Wednesday, April 23, 2014

Day 23



1.

The first one I want to believe
came from joy, the birth of my little 
sisters starting when I was two.
Those were the lovely ones, high-
pitched and followed by dance 
moves, winning-the-lottery screams 
for I knew sisters were better than 
the best of things even vanilla-and-
chocolate soft ice-cream cones 
on the beach and bushes of sky-
blue hydrangeas. A sister was promise: 
playmate, challenger, wardrobe 
exchanger, dream-catcher, life 
passenger and driver. All that 
and the deep thrill of newness 
must have pulled the screams out,
which is something I still crave 
but now find in the form of seeds 
rising into see-through-green 
seedlings, and my daughter filling 
pages with first letters - lines 
like broken limbs soon to straighten 
out, even my son stepping 
into puberty, even his up-down 
voice to come, and his younger 
brother’s as well.  And smaller things, 
the six-inch orchid with ten bright 
blooms and the four more 
about to open. Their fingernail-
sized buds purse like polite lips, 
which will soon spring apart 
to announce the flowers’ show-girl 
entrances, even if there’s no one
home to hear, even if everyone’s 
too busy to bear witness.

Tuesday, April 22, 2014

Day 22


A summer storm comes 
on like a crocodile.
It waits offshore for hours. 
When your back finally
turns, it rushes in.

Day 21



Of all the photos I’ve never taken, 
the one I will miss most is the one 
I failed to take this past weekend.

In the very photo I’m thinking
of, we are together. The sun
cries over us just so spilling

light, angling shadows off our
cheekbones. We are mid-air
jumping into water, and I’m sure 

laughter lifts from our mouths, 
though that wouldn’t be known 
empirically by looking at the photo, 

you must infer it.  Anyway, in this 
photo, the children are here with us.
Behind their goggles wild thoughts 

roam, ones they don’t yet understand, 
but one day those same thoughts 
will carry them to unknowns

we will not understand, and we
will miss them more than our
very own limbs, we will say.

Their roots will lift and because
I was hurdling from land to water, 
from solid ground to liquid space, 

we will not have this photo 
to remember how everything 
was before it changed, as it will, 

the older generation tells us, 
as it always does - no matter our 

zealous lenses, us trapping time.

Sunday, April 20, 2014

Day 20


morning glories fall 
open by the dozen. lilac 
eyes all saying yes.


Day 19


There are some moments 
I can’t wait to shed - sitting 
on a car-clogged highway, 
for one, or in the dentist’s chair
as she starts up the drill,
but today I bore none of them. 
Children’s laughter peeled 
through our yard like bright 
church bells all afternoon,
pool-water dazzled, and
sweet sunlight warmed us
just enough as I wrapped 
still-small bodies in towels.
Some moments, no matter how
often lived, I never want to end. 

Saturday, April 19, 2014

Day 18



The sun 
peeked over
the ocean
with the tired
head of an old
man or a newborn.

It pitched 
ecstatic 
rays - red, yellow
orange and pink
to crown the sky.

Today,
I believe 
we will give 
each other 
everything too.